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Posting from school. Yes. From school. I'm in summer school right now. Which really sucks. Very sucktastic. But I gotta take it to not be behind. I gotta take another class too. My adviser says to go ahead and register for it for Fall Semester with my other classes but also to be quiet about it. I'm not supposed to take it with classes that require it as a prerequisite. >_> I'm pondering whether or not to go ahead and do that or take it next summer semester. Which I'd really rather not do. T_T I probably should so I can be totally caught up. I think I will. Next Summer will be my big relaxation break.

I'm so tired. The big storm last night kept me up. I'm really hungry too. I just hate a kitkat bar but that's not gonna be enough to carry me through 3:oopm later today. I would love to just take a nap right now. I have an hour and a half or so. I think I might put my head down for a while.

I haven't updated in a while. I just haven't really had much to talk about I guess. I finally got to see my final semester grades yesterday. I was so happy. I got all B's. :D Yay. And today I gotta turn in my Volunteer Verification Forms to Cavanaugh Hall. Gotta remember to do that. Wondering if I should try walking over there. Think it would be good exercise for me. If it's not raining.

:<

About a lot of things, actually. One, my Creative Process teacher not being clear on where to drop off our final projects while she's out of town; two, not getting back my assignments for my Drawing Portfolio; and three people saying they bug EVERYBODY for sceneage in RP and making me feel like I'm not part of this EVERYBODY of which they speak.

Update because I never quite finished this journal entry and a day (or two?) has passed since... Awards on my main game were announced to me today. Sort of. I make the banners this month. So they sent me the voting results.

And, of course, as per usual, I didn't win any. I never win any... ever. At all. Not by myself. Over the past 4-5 months or so i won maybe... 5. And it was because I was attached to the other player. So I didn't win it. They did. I just happened to be the other person. I've never won any by myself. Ever. And I have a feeling I never will.

Little thing to be making a big deal over, right? Wrong. I don't care about having a little banner to place up somewhere. Not ever having won a contest for like... Best Character or Best Development makes me feel like I'm not good enough. Like I'm pretty sure every player in the game won an award just in this month's voting alone. Me? Nope. And these people won multiple awards too. I'm pretty sure I'll never win an award by myself as much as I want to. I'll always end up having to be attached to a player or character that will ensure it, because I guess my characters and my roleplaying really suck.

I feel like if there was some sort of likeability chart, I'd be at the dead bottom.

Because I suck.

I'm nothing.